The other day I looked up a website my mother-in-law gave me. She was watching CNN and saw a special on adoption, it talked about an organization called Help Us Adopt (www.helpusadopt.org). It's a non-profit that provides grants to families with financial difficulties that want to adopt.
I read, and clicked and read and clicked. It was started by a woman kinda like me, ya know, infertile. And she has a blog: http://www.aninfertileblonde.com/. I'm even kinda blonde right now, at least the strands of my hair that I paid to dye blonde.
I couldn't stop reading and clicking. And, my thoughts kept coming--how amazing it was that she did this--started such a great organization, blogged about her feelings. Sshe is COMFORTING and HELPING people, many people. She's helping people achieve their dream of becoming parents. Wow.
I've always said that when "this" part of my life is done, I want to help people get through their struggles with infertility. I'm not sure how I'll do it yet, but I'll somehow make it happen. I want to comfort others and give them hope.
I went to bed uplifted.
I went to Bible study the next day. Our group is doing a study called Brave by Angela Thomas. I love it. Down to earth, real, easy to understand. I started watching the video and I immediately felt like the session was written just for me. Seriously.
She talked about fear, the kind of fear that makes you tremble inside. I know that fear. She quoted 2 Corinthians 1:4-5. To paraphrase: The purpose of receiving comfort is so that we may comfort others. I thought of all of the comfort I have received through our difficult times, due to our faith, family and friends. It has inspired me to want to comfort others.
She also talked about hope. Having hope through adversity. Hope. A thing called hope.
It's fun when things in life come together, and through the grief and challenges, I can somehow see clearly. Even if it is just for a moment.