I was daydreaming about our baby today. Holding our baby for the first time, tears streaming down my face, not only literally, but in my dream, too. I think about holding his or her precious face to mine knowing that it was all worth it. Worth the wait.
I have a feeling that the blog posts I add after we adopt will involve lots of photos of me with tears running down my cheeks....lots of happy tears.
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Showing posts with label baby. Show all posts
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
How my thoughts have changed....
When we started on the adoption journey I wanted to grow our family, I wanted a baby and dreamed and dreamed about the day that the three of us could sit together and admire our new family member. It was all about us having a baby, a bigger family.
Then we went to LSS training, heard stories, talked to adoptive parents and learned and thought much more about birth parents, birth grandparents, etc. With our happiness, will of course come their sorrow. If you know me, you know my heart, and their sorrow is so, so hard for me.
Recently, mostly due to this potential complicated situation, I've been thinking about the life we can provide our baby. The unconditional love, safety, health care, family adventures, future, faith, extended family and friends. Things that are givens to me, but many children don't have. I hadn't spent much time thinking about us giving a "better" life to a child, although people have mentioned it to me many times. I've had a hard time thinking that we can better care for a child than someone else, we're just average everyday people that can't seem to have more children. Our journey to growing our family has been so very painful, but recently I really, truly am feeling like we're being called to do this for reasons other than our own selfishness of having more children. I'm guessing that this piece is all part of the journey.
Then we went to LSS training, heard stories, talked to adoptive parents and learned and thought much more about birth parents, birth grandparents, etc. With our happiness, will of course come their sorrow. If you know me, you know my heart, and their sorrow is so, so hard for me.
Recently, mostly due to this potential complicated situation, I've been thinking about the life we can provide our baby. The unconditional love, safety, health care, family adventures, future, faith, extended family and friends. Things that are givens to me, but many children don't have. I hadn't spent much time thinking about us giving a "better" life to a child, although people have mentioned it to me many times. I've had a hard time thinking that we can better care for a child than someone else, we're just average everyday people that can't seem to have more children. Our journey to growing our family has been so very painful, but recently I really, truly am feeling like we're being called to do this for reasons other than our own selfishness of having more children. I'm guessing that this piece is all part of the journey.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Prepping for a Visit!
We were so excited to have our good friends and their 11 month-old baby come for a visit this weekend (they live SIX hours away)! We always have a great time with them, and couldn't wait to see how much their little girl had grown. The night before we grabbed a few baby items from our basement and had the best time getting them ready for our cute little visitor. (Griffin thoroughly enjoyed the exersaucer!) It was so fun to have a baby in our home again!
All three of us were having so much fun cleaning the toys and high chair. I looked over at Jamie and commented that I didn't expect it to be so much fun. It wasn't a chore at all, and wasn't one bit depressing- despite the fact that I thought we would need some of these things for our own baby by now. Maybe it's because I am so happy that my friend gets to be a mom? Maybe I have been blessed with grace? Maybe I've finally accepted that things are different for us? Different, hard, but we also have so much good.
Griffin was so interested in the baby--he wanted to feed her and was hoping that she could come play with him outside some day. But, after a while, you could tell that sharing his toys--and attention--was getting a bit old.
We offered to keep her longer, but apparently her parents like her too much! :)
All three of us were having so much fun cleaning the toys and high chair. I looked over at Jamie and commented that I didn't expect it to be so much fun. It wasn't a chore at all, and wasn't one bit depressing- despite the fact that I thought we would need some of these things for our own baby by now. Maybe it's because I am so happy that my friend gets to be a mom? Maybe I have been blessed with grace? Maybe I've finally accepted that things are different for us? Different, hard, but we also have so much good.
Griffin was so interested in the baby--he wanted to feed her and was hoping that she could come play with him outside some day. But, after a while, you could tell that sharing his toys--and attention--was getting a bit old.
We offered to keep her longer, but apparently her parents like her too much! :)
P.S. I think my husband has nice legs.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
That would be happy!
The three of us went out to dinner tonight. Griffin looked at me, with ketsup all over around his mouth, and said, "Mommy, right now there are 3 of us and if we have a baby there will be 4 of us."
Me: "Yes, Griffin, there would be 4 of us."
Griffin: "That would be happy!"
Me, in my mind: "Oh yes, that would be very happy. The happiest thing I can ever imagine."
I smiled at Jamie and said, "Yes, Griffin that would be happy."
4 of us. Someday there will be 4...of us.
Me: "Yes, Griffin, there would be 4 of us."
Griffin: "That would be happy!"
Me, in my mind: "Oh yes, that would be very happy. The happiest thing I can ever imagine."
I smiled at Jamie and said, "Yes, Griffin that would be happy."
4 of us. Someday there will be 4...of us.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Breakfast Conversation
Griffin: Mommy, where is our baby?
Me: Oh buddy, you know where our baby is, in heaven.
Griffin: No, not that baby, the one we are going to get. Why isn't anyone giving us a baby?
Me: Don't worry buddy, we will have a baby someday, it just may take a while.
Almost 4 year olds don't have much patience! (Either do almost 35 year olds that want to have a houseful of kids, but I'm trying.)
Me: Oh buddy, you know where our baby is, in heaven.
Griffin: No, not that baby, the one we are going to get. Why isn't anyone giving us a baby?
Me: Don't worry buddy, we will have a baby someday, it just may take a while.
Almost 4 year olds don't have much patience! (Either do almost 35 year olds that want to have a houseful of kids, but I'm trying.)
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